What I know

Hebrews 11:6
"And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him"

I also know that this is hard. This mother thing. I love it. It's hard. (insert whine noise here). I talked with some young mom friends of mine late into the night last night. It turns out we are all struggling. Struggling to be more like Christ. Struggling to die to ourselves. Wishing we knew the right answers in hard situations. Wishing we could show our kids more of the love we feel. Wishing we could respond right every time. . . Wishing for. . . Heaven. . .

Because in the end, none of this will be easy here. We are sinful by nature, trying to train and raise little people who are sinful by nature. And when it comes down to it, the only successes we can see are the literal finger of God, working in the hearts of our children for His purposes. For His glory. Not us. NOT. US. Not our work, not our faithfulness, not our glory.

So, this week's goal is to die to self. In my home, mostly, but everywhere. Praying that God would help me to take down the idols of self in my heart and put Him where they were. So that my kids can see a genuine saving faith in me, and not a facade of religion which will not save. And praying that as I seek Him that He will reward according to his purposes.

And praying that April will end soon. Because this working on fixing my worst faults and being all transparent with the world. . . well, it sucks!